The road less travelled?

So, I realized recently that I need more single friends.  Don't get me wrong, I love my friends, and interestingly I'm found of my friends' significant others.  However, I've come to realize that I have no life, and this in not very conducive to dating.

Now, I think I realized this back in November, when a friend of mine and her bf were going through some issues and she suddenly spent all of her time trying to make it better.  I understood and didn't hold it against her.  In fact, at the time, I was sort of seeing someone so it wasn't at the forefront of my mind.  It was, however, slowly coming to the surface.  Throughout the fall, many of my friends had to cancel or reschedule plans because of their significant others.  And then of course I happen to date the one guy who is busier than I am and who ended up cancelling on me at the last minute all the time too.  Again, Nikkie is a very understanding person, but after a few months of this, and now that the above mentioned guy is no longer in the picture (not that he was actually "in the picture" for very long, given I saw him maybe twice in 4 months), I'm beginning to realize I need a life.  A life that includes going out and meeting new people.  I went out a lot when Tricia was here, and probably even moreso when Corey was here as well, but it tended to be either the three of us, or Corey's best friend thrown in the mix, who is sort of a butthead when alcohol is included.  I didn't realize until recently that maybe I should have been more social during this time.  Maybe I should be more social in general, but again, how does one do this when her friends don't go out very often, opting for nights in or alone with their bfs/gfs/husbands/wives/fiances....

I think the last guy made me want a bf, for the first time since high school really.  I didn't when we started dating, but he sort of talked me into it, then bailed.  Not cool at all, but hey, gotta move forward and not dwell on the past. 

So here I am....trying to move forward and not really sure how at this point.  Daniel, a good friend who I sort of dated about 1 & 1/2 years ago, told me that I can be really timid, which is why he thought I wasn't interested in the first place and it never went anywhere.  Nothing like a bit of constructive criticism about your dating style, lol, but it was good to know.  I think I've gotten better since then, but it all goes back to meeting new people.  I don't really know how to do that.  A big part of the reason I didn't want to do an online school program was because I wouldn't necessarily get to meet anyone, and actually going to a class and seeing people might have been good for me.  I still think that, but in the end, convenience and timing won out and now I'm back to still being single, and still not really having people to go out with. 

I think part of it is confidence issues too.  Which is probably gonna be a lot harder to overcome.  For instance, when I go line dancing with one friend, I have a great time, but literally never get to asked to dance.  Not once.  She gets offers all night, and I just stand to the side, usually alone, watching everyone two-step without me.  Its probably why I still don't know how to two-step.  I realize that's stupid and a little thing, but it makes me not want to go line dancing usually.  I always think I'm gonna have a good time but I end up alone at our table most of the night and it gets annoying.  Same with when I go out with another of my good friends.  She's more of a glamorous type, never leaves home without perfect hair, make-up, and heels.  Kinda of hard to stand out when you have gorgeous friends.  Don't get me wrong, I have a very well developed ego, and can be very full of myself.  But when I go out with certain friends, and those friends get asked to dance, or get drinks bought for them, its hard to keep any sort of confidence. 

I go out, and I do a lot of things by myself, and I really don't mind it, but a lot of times I just feel like I'm in a social rut, and when a lot of my friends are settling down, getting married, and having kids, kinda makes me more of a loner.  I am happy with where I'm at in my life and I'm working on quite a few goals, but the older I get, the more I realize this road is getting kind of lonely.  It'd seriously just be nice to have more people to share it with.